Jorgen, I used to feel the same. But I have felt love, and I can assure you, when you truly find it, (at least for me) you could not care less what you do life, as long as you have that one person by your side.
Good Luck Global, with everything. I hope things change and turn for the best
And BTW, since you seem to be so enthusiastic about your writing, would you like me to create a Writings board? It would do as well to add a certain level organization to our art forum