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I can't find anything besides low level feels right now
EDIT:
BUT THEN I REMEMBERED THIS
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GmerFuzRNZ4
http://i.imgur.com/4UPcY.jpg
I can't find anything besides low level feels right now
You all suck at sharing your feels. Meme10
(http://i.imgur.com/ddATc.png).. I hatechu.. Meme12
i cri evr tim
den gurl teks deep breff. den gurl sais "bf i am pregnent will u stay ma bf" n he seys "no".
gurl iz hertbrokn. <////3
gurl cried n runz awaii from boi wiffout eatin poptart n she has low blood suga so she fols.
boi runs ova 2 her.
she ded </333333333
boi crie "i sed i no b ur bf...cuz i wona b ur husband!"
he screems n frows poptart @ wol....a bootiful diomand ring wus insyd.
The fact that you found it funny means you're not retarded. If you actually felt something from this, THEN we'd have a problem.i cri evr tim
den gurl teks deep breff. den gurl sais "bf i am pregnent will u stay ma bf" n he seys "no".
gurl iz hertbrokn. <////3
gurl cried n runz awaii from boi wiffout eatin poptart n she has low blood suga so she fols.
boi runs ova 2 her.
she ded </333333333
boi crie "i sed i no b ur bf...cuz i wona b ur husband!"
he screems n frows poptart @ wol....a bootiful diomand ring wus insyd.
The sheer fact that I found this funny must mean I'm half retarded....
Get out of the basement more...
Get out of the basement more...
JOKES ON YOU
WE DONT HAVE A BASEMENT
Ok sooooo HERE WE FUCKING GOI don't have friends in high school either. I know that feel bro. It sucks but I get by because in the end everyone ends up alone.
I'm stuck in highschool and I've lost every best friend I've ever had. I lost my first best friend (and only friend at the time) when I went from elementary school to middle school because he was a grade behind. I still see him occasionally but it isn't the same.
People hated me in middle school and those who didn't I hated them because I thought they were weird. So I went through it alone.
My next best friend was a girl I met the first day of high school. We texted daily and such. Eventually after so much stress and abuse (from her to me) we somehow got into a relationship. It's a really long story that I don't care to get into right now...but the things she did to me... it was possibly the most abusive relationship I've ever known a person to have.
This drove me to become a emo-like hipster poet/guitarist/song writer. I pretty much hate everyone in my school save 5 or so people because they are all uncaring, barely sentient beings who lack any sort of capacity for critical thinking or even basic math. Everyone is a stoner except me and it annoys me cause I don't like smoking (I have asthma so I stay away from it).
Finally I just recently lost my final, most supportive best friend I've known. She was a very innocent, very smart girl and she was different in the fact that she wasn't a FUCKING WHORE like the rest of my school. She was somebody who was actually raised well and could hold a great conversation. I don't have feelings for her, and nor does she for me; it was like a brother/sister type thing. But basically we were playing truth or dare via text Sunday and she told me to make my last question before she went to sleep a good one. So, I went for a shock value kinda thing and asked her if she ever masturbated or did anything dirty. NOTE: We had been talking about sex and such up to that point already so I mean it's not like it was out of the blue! But anyway she did not answer and there was an awkward silence when she should have texted back (the kind that speaks for itself) I than shot off 4-5 more texts apologizing profusely and how stupid, awkward, and idiotic I was. She has not talked to me since.
I have a few "school friends" but I barely have any real friends; she was the last and I am alone. IT'S NOT EVEN LIKE I'M A SOCIALLY AWKWARD PERSON OR ANYTHING! EVERYONE SAYS I'M FUCKING HILARIOUS IN SCHOOL AND PEOPLE LIKE ME! But just whenever people get to know me and realize I'm not all jokes and such they leave.
Everyone leaves once they get to know me.
So here I am again, depressed, lonely, and suicidal. Just another fucking day. I miss my best friend especially; she was just nice and caring to a level I had not experienced from any other human being outside my family before. I am tearing up as I write this. I wish she could she this and yet I don't; it's a strange feeling.
The poem I'm writing now? The first few lines are as follows,
"There's no such thing as friends
Just me, myself, and the words that I've penned
And when all is said and done, don't we all just die in the end?"
Ok sooooo HERE WE FUCKING GO
I'm stuck in highschool and I've lost every best friend I've ever had. I lost my first best friend (and only friend at the time) when I went from elementary school to middle school because he was a grade behind. I still see him occasionally but it isn't the same.
People hated me in middle school and those who didn't I hated them because I thought they were weird. So I went through it alone.
My next best friend was a girl I met the first day of high school. We texted daily and such. Eventually after so much stress and abuse (from her to me) we somehow got into a relationship. It's a really long story that I don't care to get into right now...but the things she did to me... it was possibly the most abusive relationship I've ever known a person to have.
This drove me to become a emo-like hipster poet/guitarist/song writer. I pretty much hate everyone in my school save 5 or so people because they are all uncaring, barely sentient beings who lack any sort of capacity for critical thinking or even basic math. Everyone is a stoner except me and it annoys me cause I don't like smoking (I have asthma so I stay away from it).
Finally I just recently lost my final, most supportive best friend I've known. She was a very innocent, very smart girl and she was different in the fact that she wasn't a FUCKING WHORE like the rest of my school. She was somebody who was actually raised well and could hold a great conversation. I don't have feelings for her, and nor does she for me; it was like a brother/sister type thing. But basically we were playing truth or dare via text Sunday and she told me to make my last question before she went to sleep a good one. So, I went for a shock value kinda thing and asked her if she ever masturbated or did anything dirty. NOTE: We had been talking about sex and such up to that point already so I mean it's not like it was out of the blue! But anyway she did not answer and there was an awkward silence when she should have texted back (the kind that speaks for itself) I than shot off 4-5 more texts apologizing profusely and how stupid, awkward, and idiotic I was. She has not talked to me since.
I have a few "school friends" but I barely have any real friends; she was the last and I am alone. IT'S NOT EVEN LIKE I'M A SOCIALLY AWKWARD PERSON OR ANYTHING! EVERYONE SAYS I'M FUCKING HILARIOUS IN SCHOOL AND PEOPLE LIKE ME! But just whenever people get to know me and realize I'm not all jokes and such they leave.
Everyone leaves once they get to know me.
So here I am again, depressed, lonely, and suicidal. Just another fucking day. I miss my best friend especially; she was just nice and caring to a level I had not experienced from any other human being outside my family before. I am tearing up as I write this. I wish she could she this and yet I don't; it's a strange feeling.
The poem I'm writing now? The first few lines are as follows,
"There's no such thing as friends
Just me, myself, and the words that I've penned
And when all is said and done, don't we all just die in the end?"
Wow... I wrote this huh? Man I musta been fuckin depressed lol Just to let you guys know there's a light at the end of the tunnel, my best friend and I are talking again, I'm talking to a new girl with a crush on me, and my band is playing some gigs soon. Life evens out eventually :)
Tired of the PM's I see Meme5Listen girl. Stop saying that. Instead, listen to this.
Y'know what, I want to just vent about how being a TS sucks and how it's made me depressed...
But I'm just too tired, I can't take hating not being who I want to be anymore, I'm just tired of waking up and thinking that I've let myself down, I'm tired of having to wait...
Being transsexual is awkward and fun at first I have to admit, realizing what you really are, how you can be really happy, but then it goes downhill fast, The depression of not being that beautiful woman you want to be, the what ifs, the doubt - Am I really a transsexual? Am I just a big fucking pretender? A Liar?
...Will I be able to do it...?
The hope is always there... that one, big fucking hope that I can push through, the hope that I can work up the guts to tell friends and family, the hope that I will be who I want to be. but it is just so hard sometimes, I feel bad nearly every day, I've cried a lot and I just feel so weak...
I just don't know... I walked through so strong and I crumbled at the first steps, I just wish this was so much simpler, I wish I was just born a woman, just... a gorgeous, happy woman, I want to be able to be who I want to be.
I just can't cope sometimes, it's too much to deal with on a daily basis.
This show, My Little Pony, makes me happy. Always. Maybe it can make you happy too.
(http://static.fjcdn.com/pictures/Da_5fb25d_1772546.jpg)This show, My Little Pony, makes me happy. Always. Maybe it can make you happy too.
ABORT THREAD
I know I'm necroing kinda here but I thought I should say something. That girl with a crush on me? Our one month is Friday. My band? First few gigs under our belt, we're headin' to Man-fricken-hatten to play some really cool bars. I just wanted to update to show how quickly life can just kinda turn around; and stress the importance of hanging in there for just another day, because eventually, your break will come.Always.
Stay strong fellas :D
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I didn't make the connection between the two picture.
When I finally did, I died a little on the inside.
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It's not fun knowing someone you care for lacks the same emotions you have.
The only people that I can call true friends do not go to my school. They're almost all here. I'm an outcast, a loner, that kid that has a small group of friends he sits with, if he sits with anyone. I'm doing terrible in school, not for lack of intelligence, but my work habits are shit. I'm in danger of failing a class, or even two. If I fail two classes in the same term, I will be expelled from school. If I get expelled, I'll have to go to some shitty private school, never get into a decent college, and never be actually successful in life. I've literally forced myself into never having a relationship with a girl, on purpose. I am under massive stress, loads of work, and a shit-ton of issues with my parents. I'm stubborn, spiteful, self-absorbed, and I'm trying hard to change that. I know what my problems are, but I still can't fix them.Okay, so I was writing this post on my dad's computer, and he wanted to use it for a couple of min, so I trashed the original. It was way too long. I'll try and keep this shorter. This is just a general dump of feels and relationship shit, or lack of.
When I was in 8th grade, there was a girl I liked, she knew I liked her, we never really 'dated' or anything, but I talked to her a lot and liked her. That shit ended, was the only person I ever really 'liked', as in more then just a little crush. Two years later and we're friends. She has a boyfriend. Since then I haven't really liked anyone. There was one girl, but due to reasons it is impossible for that to ever work, although she was one of the nicest people I've ever met. So, as I was saying, I haven't really liked anyone. I want to feel that way about someone, but I haven't, and it's just really damn depressing. Sometimes I'd think about that girl in 8th grade, but I've concluded that the only reason I miss what we had is because I don't like anyone else.
Another really depressing thought that's been bugging me: I often wonder how people can say they wish they were in highschool again, but I always scoffed at that, due to me strongly disliking the 'school' aspect of it. I'm starting to feel differently about it though, due to a handful of reasons. First of all, I am halfway through high school, and I want to have some kind of relationships, but I feel everyday I'm just wasting time when I don't do anything. Another thing though, I don't like the idea of actively chasing after people, I mean if I actually like someone I will, but I don't want to go around hitting on people in order to get a girlfriend, it's not like that. I feel like if I just go on with my life eventually I'll meet someone I like, and it'll work out. This plan doesn't go with my whole hating how highschool is quickly disappearing though. It's not like I won't be having relationships after highschool, but I feel this is where I should be having them. I don't know why.
The worst part is the only people I am even slightly interested in are all upperclassmen, and they're going to graduate before me, which is just even more depressing if I ever have some sort of relationship with them that lasts for a decent amount of time.
So, I had a dream last night. It was a long and weird dream. I enjoyed it though. A girl that falls into the category of slightly interested in, takes part in it. Basically a lot of shit happens, but we spend time together in the dream and have a good time. I enjoyed being with her in the dream, not going to go into details on what happened as it's just a lot of weird crap, but here comes the point. I think I'm starting to like her because of the dream, while I've thought about her somewhat normally, I don't like how the dream makes me like her more. As the person in my dream isn't her, but a figment of my subconscious. I feel like I should like her because of shit she does IRL, not my dreams. Overall I guess it's still a happy thing, but I feel like it's for the wrong reasons. She also falls into the category of people who will graduate before me, which makes me feel stressed out like I have to beat the clock if I ever want to have anything between us.
TL;DR: Everyone on CG misuses the Iron-E-Meter and it just hits me right in the feels sometimes.
Everything is meaningless now, hooray.
I used to feel fucking depressed about everything and that got worse and worse, I thought it was better but now I'm just so apathetic I don't know what's going on or if I should give a shit.
I should go to the doctors but why? am I actually depressed? And what can they do about it? Can't go to the doctors this week as EXAMS AND SHIT which I'll flop and get shit grades - which by the way I can't care about at all fsr, and I really, really need to, or should.
So yeah.
Everything is meaningless now, hooray.You should go to the doctors they will probably prescribe you Zolaf and something else to stop depression and anxiety.
I used to feel fucking depressed about everything and that got worse and worse, I thought it was better but now I'm just so apathetic I don't know what's going on or if I should give a shit.
I should go to the doctors but why? am I actually depressed? And what can they do about it? Can't go to the doctors this week as EXAMS AND SHIT which I'll flop and get shit grades - which by the way I can't care about at all fsr, and I really, really need to, or should.
So yeah.
and watch this, its great:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fl0TEtHvvO0
and watch this, its great:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fl0TEtHvvO0
Geez, you really like that video I posted. I forgot about it myself!